It seemed like I couldn't so much as sit down at the board without dropping game after game to players rated 1200-1400. Every time I played I felt like I was going to lose. It was a terrible outlook to have but I just couldn't help it. I was wondering if I would make it all the way down to my floor of 1500.
Then, something happened. I remembered that in the first year of my return to competitive play I had taken my rating from 1500 to 1720. Yes, I then dropped 160 points, but so what. I had gotten there, hadn't I?
I had gotten cocky and hubris had bitten me. It was time to relax and remember how I had made it in the first place.
So that's exactly what I did. I started working hard again when I would study. I started to remember that rating differences exist for a reason.
Essentially I remembered that if I just played my game the results would follow. I lost the fear.
In the past 12 months I have been over 1700 for about half that time, and am currently at my all time ratings peak and I feel like I am still trending up.
Here is the game that I credit for turning my attitude around: